We're somewhere outside of the city and the captain Morgan has started to take hold.
There's no better way to describe the connection in friendship other than near perfection.
My biggest fear, my biggest anxiety in the last 2 years is that my heart - my friends - won't find me as complimentary now vs then. Because of the changes I've made to who I am, and the changes I'm making to who I'm becoming, it's hard not to think "they won't like me if I'm this way. They won't like me because I'm not who I used to be".

I remember sitting in my best friends living room. The night I moved back from Quebec, The night I figured I'd kill myself, and I sat there drinking and pouring my heart out about all the bad decisions I made and how fucked I felt and they said to me - we saw through all the shit before. We see through all the shit now - and we see you. And we love you.
and despite the anxiety and fear I feel every now and then, I still know that's true. And I still know that even if I become someone entirely different - they still see who I am fundamentally. And they love me.
And really, there's nothing else I could ask for.
But I am blessed to have a campfire in front of me, and my best friends all around me, and life is pretty god damn perfect.